Tuesday, April 25, 2017

National Infertility Awareness Week

In honor of National Infertility Awareness Week...

Man I wish I was a better writer.  If I was, I might be able to express all of this on my own, but instead, I'm borrowing from others.

I wanted to share an article that is a small portion of what USA Today is covering this week.  The struggle is real.  The heartache is real.  And even when there is resolution (adoption, surrogacy,  successful IVF, etc) it doesn't take away from what the journey looked like to get there.

I get it.  Unhappy subjects, murky areas that aren't full of sunshine, and talk of things that might get you a frowny face on Facebook are more taboo than just sharing the joy.  But there is power in letting these things out.

For a long time I internalized my grief and disappointment.  I projected a happy outside while inside I felt like a failure.  It's always my hope that while people can follow along with our journey, it will also give some courage and hope to some other woman out there who may be silently struggling.  If this is you, please know you are not alone.  Sharing these stories and talking in the open air takes away some of the power that grief and disappointment can carry.

There are so many things that people are hurting over these days and so many statistics that are staggering.  For those of you who have been praying for Mr. A and I as we have battled this issue, I can't thank you enough.

Check it out.  There are videos and stories, statistics and cold hard facts.  And many of what you will see are situations, statistics, facts and feelings that we personally have gone through and are still battling.  I'm thankful that I know God has his hand in this and there is light at the end of the tunnel, but the struggle is so real.

If you are also struggling, please know you are not alone.

National Infertility Awareness Week- read all about it!

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Baby Carr Update

Hi friends and neighbors and the internet!  Katy's Neverending Story has been on a bit of a hiatus lately with no good reason except life has been BUSY.  Here's an update on our crazy lives:

March- performed back in our hometown to help raise funds for Baby C.
March- work travel piled up thanks to weather delays and snowstorms
April- more work travel (trying to fit in as much as possible pre-baby)
April- weekend getaway to Austin with Mr. A to celebrate our early anniversary

Here are some adoption updates:
No news yet!

Now I've talked about the waiting game before and I am still pretty proud of myself for dealing with all this with patience- or as much patience as I can muster.  We're lucky in that we get regular updates from our caseworker (even if there are no updates to give) and we have our awesome tracker.  We can view in realtime the number of "hits" to our online profile.  I may or may not check every day.

So as of today, here's where we stand:
Now these could be skewed- it could be other prospective adoptive couples trolling to see how profiles need to be written (no judgement cause that's exactly what I did), but I do take comfort in the fact that people ARE looking at our profile and they are looking pretty regularly.  These views also don't take into account the other websites where our profile is listed- this is just the views for our specific agency.  April is a little slower than March, so I'm trying not to stress about it, but all in all, I'm feeling good.

So, between checking on our status and working like crazy, so far Mr. A and I are handling the waiting game pretty well.

We're getting noticed online.  WIN.
We've taken a couple's weekend away just for us.  WIN.
We've "tested" every glider in the state of Texas on it's baby-rocking aptitude.  WIN.
We've slowly started to add to the nursery.  WIN.
We've talked semi-seriously about baby names.  WIN.

I've also recently dropped some of the adoption groups and boards I originally joined when we started this process.  I've found that for the most part there are just too many opinions to go around.  And with opinions comes judgement and with judgement comes guilt and stress and that's not something we need when we don't even know what type of situation we are going to be presented with.

Here's the one piece of advice I'll ever give.  If you are considering adoption, talk to your friends and family about it.  Get the story from someone you know who's been through it.  Your situation may not be the same, but there's a bunch of "stranger danger" reading and taking to heart the opinions and situations of complete strangers.  Use your own network of people who love you.

So, we continue to wait.  We continue to pray.  Financially we are in a good place.  We continue to add to our fund and feel confident in what we've been able to raise/save.  We continue to be overwhelmed by the shows of support we are still receiving from friends, family, and complete strangers.

You can follow our journey here:  www.youcaring.com/carradoptionfund

Monday, April 3, 2017

The Post-Show Show Part 1- a BIG thank you!

In theatre, there are stages to every production:

Pre-Production- this is where you have to be at your most organized.  There are so many details, rehearsals, final checks, notes and all around stresses to deal with.  Your mind is constantly spinning and working in circles frantically trying to ensure no detail is missed.

Production- this is where adrenaline and sheer determination kick in and all of the details fly away in the face of the lights, the actors and the audience.

Post-Production- this is the dreamlike euphoric state of emotions you didn't have time to process during pre-production.  You accomplished something amazing!  You bonded with people for life over this one event!  You keep creating conversations that start with, "Can you believe this happened?" or "Do you remember when...".

Well folks, I'm still in that post-production haze.  I truly meant to write about our show the next day, but several things happened:
1. A VERY early flight home.  Followed by a VERY long nap.
2.  A VERY busy workweek (probably making up for a previous very distracted workweek).
3. A VERY busy second workweek.
4. Figuring out the new routine post-production.

So, I am so sorry that it's taken me a couple of weeks to regroup.  My mom said I shouldn't stress too much about it, but I don't like silent cyberspace, so please accept my apology!  I promise, regular blogging is resuming!

So, we are working on the production video (yes there is video, and yes, some of it is so adorable I can't wait to share, but in the meantime, I did want to share a couple of stories and thank you's about our show...just in case you missed it.

So Once Upon a Time, I was a floundering 20-something single gal struggling with school, struggling with life and struggling with my place in the world.  I'll admit- I was not a rebellious teenager- instead my rebellion and angst happened in my early 20's.  I was lost.  Fast forward a couple of years to me assisting with my alma mater's one-act theatre production of West Side Story.  We won state (go Trojans!) and as an encore, we booked the Theatre Macon stage for a final performance for friends and family.  That was when I first met Jim Crisp, the artistic director.  I'd known who he was, I had seen his shows, but this was a big moment in my life- even if I didn't know it then.

It was through that performance that Jim later called and asked me to choreograph their Youth Actor's Company production of Brigadoon.  I said yes, and that started my relationship with Theatre Macon, the Youth Actor's Company, the Board of the Theatre, and my friendship with Jim, my relationship with Mr. A, and so many other friendships and partnerships that are so meaningful in my life.

It was Jim, this past Christmas as we were catching up over lunch, who had the idea to have some sort of a performance to assist in our fundraising.

Jim was at our show and gave the most moving curtain speech.  It's hard to express what he means to me, and how that one meeting so many years ago shaped so much of where I am today.  The performance last month will go down as one of my most special memories- and it wouldn't have happened without him.

I can't wait to tell our baby one day about this theatre and this man who changed my course.

Jim, you have always been a driving mentor in my life.  I'm so thankful our paths crossed when they did, and so grateful for your direction, your friendship, and your generosity.  Adam and I love you so much.