Wednesday, December 28, 2016

The Home Study

Talk about a whirlwind!  The last couple of weeks have been just that for our family.  In addition to the traditional holiday madness that always ensues, we've been working like crazy to finish our paperwork and prepare our house for our home study.  While this post may be a bit technical and lengthy, I want to ensure anyone who is considering adoption has all the facts as sometimes the idea of a home study may seem scary and overwhelming.  But for us, it's been just the opposite.

So, let's start at the very beginning (a very good place to start).
An approved home study needs to be completed before a child can be placed in your home.  Home study requirements vary, based on the state, but most require the following pieces of information from the adoptive parents in order to even qualify:
     1. Proof that you are who you say you are, economically and financially
     2. Proof that you have thought about this process and are emotionally ready to parent
     3. Proof that your background, history, and home life do not raise any red flags as a potential parent

Now this is all very broad, so what it really boils down to is lots and LOTS of paperwork and answering LOTS of questions as well as:
  • Doctor's statements on our health (some states require a physical)
  • W2s, Tax Statements, Check Stubs and official documentation on education and employment
  • Letters of reference
  • Address and Work history (Ours asked for 15 years of history on both and let me tell you, remembering every place I lived while in college was a brain teaser that took 3 days to solve)
  • Answering questions about our parenting skills, filling in the blanks that usually started with, "What would you do if___" and discussing our parenting styles, thoughts on discipline, goals for our child future plans regarding activities and education.
  • Discussing our marriage in detail, it's successes and failures, our individual strengths and the possible parenting strengths of our partner. (this happens when the couple is interviewed individually and together)
  • Writing a letter to our birth  mother (more on this in later posts as it was one of the most emotional things I've ever had to do).
  • Submitting to background checks in EVERY STATE WE'VE EVER LIVED IN (this goes in all caps to give you a sense of the amount of paperwork some states require when filling out background forms- it was not pleasant)
  • Proofing our home for the safety and security of our child
This is just a brief list but I hope you get the picture.  It's detailed.  It's time consuming.  It's filling out LOTS of paperwork with LOTS of questions.  It's something I really wanted to pass off or hire out for, but so important for the adoptive parents to fill out and turn in themselves. It's also important that BOTH parents take part in filling out the information and not just one parent who is impatient and just wants to get it done (I'll give you one guess as to who the impatient one was in this scenario).  Only then can we schedule interviews and visits with our social worker.  Then, they put everything together and approve us per state requirements.

For the our state, they also required a 4-page checklist to be completed on any safety and health issues on our house.  This included securing outlets with the childproof covers, getting our heating system checked, and installing a fire extinguisher that is visible in the kitchen.  No, it couldn't go underneath in a cabinet.  It had to be seen out in plain view.
Can everybody see it?!!?

Here's the interesting thing.  While it was hard to pull everything together, fill out additional paperwork and ready our house, it really forced Mr. A and I to answer questions that I'm not sure we'd be talking about now if I had gotten pregnant and we were preparing for baby in that way.  To even be able to meet with the social worker, we have to discuss how we view discipline, we have to talk about what we want our child to learn from us, and we have to be open about what from our own childhood we want to bring to our parenting skills as well as some differences in parenting we'd like to make from our own parents.  This has been SO valuable and such a blessing!

So, we turned in our paperwork right before Christmas, and I honestly didn't think we'd hear from anyone before the new year.  But, everyone seemed to be jumping to finish our file as we got a call from the social worker and had our home visit YESTERDAY!

Thank goodness the house was already in decent shape, as I'm not sure what husband really wanted to spend the Christmas and the day after deep in cleaning supplies.  Still, Mr. A was a trooper and accommodated my OCD as I was convinced that our worth would be tied to the vacuum cleaner lines in the carpet and the spotless, fingerprint-free appliances.

I think there are probably horror stories about social workers coming and "judging" your ability to parent in situations like this.  I was nervous.  I mean, this complete stranger was going to show up and use her checklist as a measuring stick for us.  I'm happy to say that my fears were COMPLETELY unfounded.  Our person was completely warm and friendly and said repeatedly that she was there to advocate FOR us, which was such a relief!
Us right before the doorbell rang!

Our visit consisted of a review of our paperwork, tour of the house and check of our safety features (yes, she looked at the fire extinguisher!) and just like that, in 3 hours it was over!

Full disclosure- I also made muffins.... it couldn't hurt, right?!?!

I think that the agency is still waiting on some background forms to come back (hint, if you've lived in multiple states in the last 5 years you have to have cleared background information from each state so it takes a little longer) but other than that we are DONE!  Once our profile is live (hopefully this week), there will be NOTHING stopping us from getting picked or matched by an expectant mama.

Here's the thing about adoption and the way it works.  It's a process.  There are steps and until those steps are taken, you can't take the next steps.  It's also different from what you thought your process might look like.  But what's so rewarding and thrilling are the positive and encouraging people who WANT to advocate for you and your future family that come along the way.  God showed me that with this home visit.  I complained (a bunch) about this part of the process, but now that we've seen the social worker and she's seen our house and seen us interact as a couple, I see how this all fits in as a piece of the bigger puzzle.

If you would like to pray, share or invest in our journey, you can do so here:

Tuesday, December 20, 2016

The Hoops and Hurtles of Adoption...Our Profile

I haven't talked about the details of our process too much, so for those of you who may be considering adoption, I hope you will find this post helpful.

I was binge-watching Fuller House Season 2 the other night (**SPOILER ALERTS**) and was so happy to see an adoption story featured on there!  I won't tell you who, but 3 episodes had dedicated story lines pertaining to this couple's journey, ending with a Season Ending featuring a brand new cast member!

Ah, if only life could be as simple as it looks on TV (and if only my hair could do what Candace Cameron's hair is doing in Season 2- it looks so amazing!)

On the show, during the Thanksgiving episode, the couple in question decided they wanted to adopt... fast forward 2 episodes later where the social worker visited their workplace and hilarious sketch comedy forward to New Years where the new couple welcomes in the year with a baby.

While I'm sure there's some basis for that timeline, in the real world, 6 weeks doesn't quite work as there are several things that have to be done.

Take our story, for example.  We've been working hard for the past 6 weeks on just a couple of the pieces needed in order to move forward:  our Home Study docs and our Media Profile.  I'll talk more about the home study later- but here's the skinny on the profile.

The profile is a virtual way adoptive parents display their lives and their information for perspective birth parents.  This can include photos, videos, letters, statements and general Q&A.  Profiles are uploaded onto websites where birthmothers search for perspective parents, and are also sent out electronically to hospitals, pregnancy centers, and other agencies throughout the US.

Now, if you've ever posed for engagement pictures, wedding pictures, Glamour Shots or participated in any type of photo shoot, you may feel the pain I have felt putting this together.  Our agency wanted a series of photos of Mr. A and I:

  • Together, close up, formal shots
  • Together, informal
  • Together, action
  • Individual action
I'll admit, this was one of the things I dreaded the most.  I really don't like having my picture made unless it's a cheesy selfie or a theatre pic.  Also, we weren't allowed to turn in selfies.  So, even finding action and together shots of us that don't have the selfie extended arm was a hard challenge. Then, we had to spend a couple of weeks taking photos that looked "authentic" but were actually pretty staged.

Here are some of the photos that did NOT make the cut... can you see the awkwardness in my expressions?!?

Selfie Arm.  Not acceptable

Fake Laughter

He's pointing into thin air.  And the post-it with my instructions to him is visible

He wasn't ready for his close-up

My secret is out

One thing that struck me in doing these photos, is that Mr. A. definitely comes across as the "more fun" of the two of us and I have to say, I'm not sure how I feel about that.  Check out the evidence yourself:

He's the poster boy for awesome!!!  Unlike me...

Yardwork and cooking?!  Boo.

Yes, Mr. A is more fun, but that's good, right?!  You need a nice mix of personality and activity between the two parents (I'm trying to convince myself!).

As uncomfortable as this experience was, I'm happy to say it's over.  On Sunday, we sent in 200+ photos, letters and statements in to our agency to choose from and I'm excited because this will mean our profile should be LIVE for all birthmothers to see by the new year!

If you'd like share, pray or invest in our journey, you may do so here:

Thursday, December 15, 2016

Adoption Fundraising Projects

We've had so many friends and family jump on board with this journey as we try to save/raise the $40K estimated costs for our adoption.  As you may know, we have our site, which we are two-thirds of the way to our $30K goal.  The additional $10K needed is money we really wanted to contribute ourselves so we've been saving and selling to try to get to this number.

We've also done some great fundraisers and will continue to do so through next year.  Here are a couple of highlights:

My sweet cousin Lindsay, her mom Kathy and her daughter Kathryn have been working hard since we first announced on their "Cousins 4 Baby Carr" initiative.
In November, Lindsay hosted a live Facebook event to sell Minecraft ornaments and original paintings by her 6 year old daughter Kathryn.

Lindsay is like a sister to me.  She let me boss her around as the "older" cousin when we were younger, we've been each other's weddings, and just last May we met up with our husbands and her newest little one in New Orleans.  

Even though I'm the older one, I look up to her and her amazing mothering skills so much- I hope I can be the kind of mom she is to her kids.  She's the appointed CFO of our adoption project and has been such a huge help!!!

My other cousin Bethany, who's been one of my prayer partners throughout this journey, also hosted a Mary Kay fundraiser on Facebook last month.  

Bethany is a total rockstar.  She lives in Florida with her husband and 2 boys and I also really look up to her as she manages a busy household but has raised such sweet children. She's a MK expert, so please visit her site when you can.

We also headed to my hometown of Macon, GA during the family reunion weekend for a fundraiser my friend Natasha agreed to host at Monkey Joe's she and her husband own.  
This was a tough one as it was COLD and RAINY that day, but we still had some sweet families attend and people called ahead to purchase tix which helped us a bunch.  We even had a special appearance from Monkey Joe himself!

Natasha has had such a heart for our journey and I'm so appreciative of her and all of our friends who participated.

One of the worries I had when we started this whole journey was how in the world we would be able to manage the financial pieces in order to adopt.  The support from our friends and family in their individual gifts as well as the gifts of their time, energy and service has overwhelmed me and has gotten us so much closer to our goal.

There are still some fun things planned for 2017 so stay on the lookout.  In the meantime, please continue to pray and share our journey.  One thing that's come up time and time again is the connection with other couples out there who are also struggling with their inability to get pregnant naturally, so I hope my journey can be a source of comfort and hope.  There are options and there is light at the end of the tunnel.  When you share, you don't know who may be impacted in a positive way, so thank you for that.

To pray, share or invest in our journey, visit our site:

Monday, December 12, 2016

Really Long Post about a Really Great Family Reunion

Well, December has been off to a CRAZY start.

We spent the first weekend of December back home in Georgia for my family reunion.

Over 50 adults and 20 children represented!  Can you find my face?!?!  Hint, it's hidden partially behind a toddler.

It was great.  I got to play with my nephews, my cousins kids, catch up with the grownups and celebrate 4 generations of my family in one place.  It's always a little bittersweet because not everyone can come, but it was amazing just the same.  My 3 little ring bearers are now these tall good looking high school students, and my cousins, who I used to boss around as the "oldest" growing up now have kids of their own!
My ringbearers.  Too cool to pose.

My baby brother with his baby- I just melt.

My grandmother with her great-grands.

We also had a special appearance by Santa Clause (Mr. A) who posed with just about everybody.
Santa and my parents.

Santa and my grandmama.

The reunion was great because for whatever reason, we had a slew of kids ranging from 2-4 years old running around and their reactions to each other were priceless.  Here are these kids meeting other kids they've never met and probably will only see once a year, but they recognized each other and just started playing and hanging out like family does.
Cousins Milo and Henry meeting for the first time.  They were best buds the rest of the day!

Babies everywhere!

My Nephew and Mr. A. deep in conversation

Girl talk

It's not a party til you throw leaves in your hair.

It got me thinking about Baby Carr.  Would we bring in the newest family member next year?  Would B.C. just jump into the mix with everyone else?  Before we ate, we had a sweet prayer time and my Uncle David mentioned our adoption journey.  Wow.  Not only do we now feel that love and support from our immediate family- we really feel it from the extended one as well.

We also took the opportunity at the family reunion to have my sweet cousin Bethany take some adoption profile pics for us.  It felt a little bit like engagement photos all over again, but it was fun.  Here are some of our favorites:

Every year, our family participates in this 10K to honor my grandfather but this is the first year we've gotten to go, so we registered and completed our very first 10K!   No, that is not a joke, I ran/walked a 10K.  I'm still not ready to talk about whether or not I'll EVER do one again, but here are some of the memories of that 2 hour experience:

A few of the runners (I really thought doing the race was a mandatory thing for the reunion)

Mr. A and I jumped on the podium pre-race since we figured we wouldn't place :)  And that's my aunt, who finished WAY before me.  Great job Aunt Kathy!

We didn't come in first, but we didn't come in last, so I consider that a WIN!

Thanks family, for the best weekend and thanks for praying and sharing in our journey!

If you would like to pray, share or invest in our adoption journey, you can do so here:

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

November- National Adoption Month!

Today is the last day of National Adoption Month.  Don't worry, you'll still get plenty of adoption-related news from me and this blog, but I wanted to take a minute and thank everyone who was involved this month.  From sending a smiley face on #worldadoptionday to sharing and donating to our adoption fund.  Our journey's not over, but it's been really great to see such concentrated support this month and I can't tell you how much we appreciate it.

For many of you, adoption is not on your radar like it's on mine, but on this last day of awareness, I do want to let you know that even if you're not in the place to adopt, there are plenty of ways you can be involved in someone else's adoption story.

Here are just a few ways you can help:

1. Reach out to your local pregnancy center and volunteer.  The need for volunteers is strong everywhere, and having people handy to answer the phones, donate supplies, and the hundreds of other things needed for these centers to thrive is a real need.

2. Volunteer at a children's home.  Our Sunday School has spent time at the local boy's home here, and giving kids an opportunity to play, get some adult contact and positive mentoring not only is good for them, it's great for you!

3. Use your social media!  Posting or sharing your volunteer group of choice helps spread the word.  The average Facebook user spends at least 20 minutes per day looking at status updates.  Who knows how many eyes can hit your status update on giving back!?!?

Not sure where to start?  Volunteer Match has a great search engine!

Thank you for participating in Adoption Awareness Month and thank you for continuing to pray, share and invest in our adoption journey!

Tuesday, November 29, 2016


If you travel frequently like I do, I'm sure you've had the feeling before when you have an early flight and you find yourself racing.
*Racing to get out of bed for that so so early alarm
*Racing to finish packing (because there's always something I forgot)
*Racing to the car, praying there's gas cause I do not have time to stop
*Racing through traffic
*Racing to find parking
*Racing to get to get through security as fast as possible

And then, after all that racing, you sit.  And wait.  It may be 10 minutes or it may be an hour but after all that racing, there is a certain amount of waiting that happens while you wait for your plane to board.

In some ways, that's where we are right now.  We are RACING.
*Racing to complete home study documents
*Racing to find every piece of paperwork needed for the social worker
*Racing to fire/safety-proof our home for our home visit
*Racing to get photos taken for our profile
*Racing through all of the documents, questionnaires, statements and narratives we've had to present
*Racing through the planning, fundraising, stressing, budgeting and details that seem to crop up every single day

But pretty soon, all that racing is going to come to a halt and then... we'll be waiting.  It could be 10 days or it could be 10 months, but it's the waiting that is right around the corner.

I talked with our social worker today and she mentioned that it's normal to feel antsy because after so much racing, the waiting can seem tough.  It definitely feels like a looming time period that I'm not sure I'm ready for.  I mean, sure, we could get matched right away and have a baby by Valentine's but the truth of adoption is it's a waiting game.

What will happen when the RACING is over?  How in the world will I occupy my time during the WAITING?

If you've got some helpful tips, please feel free to share.  I have to say, as much as the RACING has really been stressful, I am a little nervous about the WAITING that is about to start.

If you would like to pray, share or invest in our journey, please do so here:

Wednesday, November 23, 2016


It's been a whirlwind week.  In addition to the normal job, we've been working like crazy to get home study stuff turned in as well as doing our first photo shoot for our profile.  I've been fingerprinted, turned in all sorts of paperwork and will spend the weekend installing smoke detectors and outlet covers.

But I did want to stop to talk about Thanksgiving for a minute.  Here's what I'm Thankful for:

1. My husband.  Because let me tell you this process can drive anyone crazy, but he's been there steadfast and strong through it all.

2. My parents.  Any question, complaint, or quick pep talk- they're there encouraging and loving us with every step.

3. My in-laws.  They are so excited and their excitement reminds me that I also need to get excited.  I'm so thankful for their enthusiasm.

4. My prayer partners.  These are some busy ladies with all sorts of stuff going on, yet through it all, they are reaching out and lifting up.

5.  My friends.  What amazing people.  The reading, sharing and giving of our journey in these 2 short months is nothing short of amazing.

6. The blogsphere.  I don't know who all of you are, but I do know you have care and empathy for our journey.  THANK YOU.

I hope you all have a blessed Thanksgiving.

Saturday, November 19, 2016

Baby C. Fundraising Progress

To celebrate National Adoption Month, our friends and family have just come together in AMAZING ways to assist in helping us raise our remaining funds needed for Baby C.  Since we are headed into the holidays, there are all sorts of opportunities to give, share and participate.  Here's our breakdown- please share with your friends and family:

NOW - November 26th
Stock up on your makeup and beautify yourself for the holidays!  My mazing cousin Bethany (and prayer partner through this journey) is offering to share some funds from her Mary Katy business.  Visit her site here and enjoy all of the MK offerings for skincare, makeup and special holiday items!

NOW-December 4th
Calling all Middle Georgia friends with kids!  Monkey Joe's in Warner Robins is hosting a fun night Sunday, December 4th, where proceeds of tickets sold will go towards our adoption fund!  If you are in town from 6pm-8pm, please stop by!  I will be there and would love to see you!  If you can't come and are interested in pre-paying for tickets, please contact MJ's here for more info!

NOW while Supplies Last
My sweet cousin Lindsay held an online ornament party with customized Minecraft ornaments and other goodies included some paintings by her 6 year old daughter with all proceeds going to our fund.  She's still got some left- contact her for more details!

Still going strong...
Our You Caring site is still up and running... so if you'd rather just give a financial gift there, you can do so.  I'll have some updates on our homestudy progress later- there's so much we're working on, and knowing there are those out there willing to participate, share, and give is so comforting.

Coming soon...
One of the vendors I partner with at work, Rossmore LA has generously donated some sterling silver jewelry to our cause.  I'll be doing a live Facebook event closer to December for an opportunity to buy some of this amazing jewelry.  Everything is hand-crafted and one of a kind.  I can't wait to share and will keep you posted!  Here's a sneak peak of some of the amazing pieces...

All of a sudden, there are so many things happening and we are working our adoption from several different angles as we prep for our homestudy and birthmother profile.  To know there are also some sweet friends and family who are helping keep our fundraising going is so comforting and appreciated.  Please continue to share and pray for us and thanks in advance!

Tuesday, November 15, 2016

World Adoption Day!!

It's World Adoption Day!  Show your support for adoption by adding a smiley face and sending it to your social sites!  Feel free to tag us (Facebook:  ktneverending, Instagram: katt5498) and use the following hashtags:

Thanks for celebrating with us!

Wednesday, November 9, 2016

writing when i don't know what to write

It's the day after the election.  And I'll be honest, my last 24 hours, like many of my friends and colleagues, have been filled with all sorts of emotions.  And no, this is not going to be that type of post, filled with an opinion that, depending on what your choice looked like, will cause you to comment or unfriend me or praise me with the newest political meme.  I just need to write a bit.

I feel like have a unique viewpoint.  I see and understand why people are thrilled right now, coming from a smaller town in the South and seeing how the loss of jobs, corrupt government influence, and despair at the prospect that God & Amendment-given rights were in potential jeopardy.  I am proud to come from a deeply conservative family whose faith is a driving force into the political decisions they make.  I've also had the privilege of living in 2 of the largest cities in this country over the last 6 years and have witnessed the glaring need for the social and government programs focused on recognizing minorities and healthcare initiatives, the unhealthy treatment of women in the workplace, and the need for reform on so many levels. While I personally wasn't particularly motivated by either candidate I got why people were so motivated by both, depending on their viewpoint.

I guess what I'm trying to say is I get it.  You may be thrilled.  You may be scared.  You may be feeling like you're gaining control back, or you may be feeling like you are losing your personal choice.  What I don't get is the amount of angry, biased, polarized statements that are flooding my social media feed from both sides of the aisle.  It makes me sad to see people I highly look up to reacting in a way that could be so misread by others.

If you are thrilled, inspired, and hopeful based on our election results, I am thrilled for you.  I'm glad you are empowered that your choice has resulted in what could be true economic and global change.  This election did show that every vote counts and people's voices could be heard and that is a victory.

On the other end of the spectrum, I have friends and co-workers who are women, African-American, Hispanic, gay, unemployed, self-employed, Christian, Muslim and, living in the big city I live in now, I have already witnessed the true distress and fear that some are experiencing right now.  And if you are reading this and you are confused and scared, I want you to know and feel support and love from me.  Regardless of your choice and regardless of who is President, it's my goal to show the love of Jesus to all of you without reservation.  I'm not going to mock your pain, and I'm not going to diminish what you are feeling.  Many of you are young.  Many of you are experiencing your first election and you are emotionally feeling what you've never felt before.  These feelings are valid, and if you need support and want to talk it out, I want you to reach out to me.

I think a lot about our birthmother.  She could already be pregnant.  She could already be facing serious decisions.  Based on her viewpoint, she could be excited about this nation's future, or she could be so scared.  She could feel pressure to make a choice other than adoption in fear that her choices will become more limited based on our political horizon.  I hope someone is reaching out and showing her love and support.  I hope she's not just reading rhetoric that continues to cause her distress.  I hope there's someone within her network who can encircle her in their arms.

This isn't quite an adoption post.  But it is a post about choice.  How we choose to react and speak about what's going on in our country. How we choose to love our neighbor.  How we choose to celebrate our victories.  How we choose to manage and move forward in our disappointment.  How we choose to speak what's on our minds and hearts. How we choose to acknowledge that our words and actions do matter. This is not a post that is intended to spark a debate or provide direct opinions on the outcome of our political choices.  This isn't intended to incite political comment either, so I hope you will not take any of this as anything other than the fact that we need to support each other so much right now.  I apologize if it offends anyone, as that is not my intention at all.

You never know what you say, post, tweet and respond to will be interpreted so I pray we all exercise some love and discretion as we talk about our nation's future. We all made a choice yesterday, but our choice of reaction is still in our hands.

I love you all.  Be good to each other.
"Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love."  Ephesians 4:2

Monday, November 7, 2016

The Election and Our Adoption

I know that most of you are very aware of what happens tomorrow on November 8th- Election Day!  Go vote!

But, I am pretty confident that many of you don't know what happens the week after on November 15th?!?!

It's World Adoption Day!

November is an entire month of adoption awareness and it's also a great way to involve kids, parents, friends and families in a visual statement of support online.  All you have to do is draw a smiley face on your hand, take a pic, and post on your social feed.  You can use the hashtag #worldadoptionday and join millions who support adoption worldwide through awareness, fundraising and giving.

I'd like to challenge you to take a step further. You see, on November 15th, we'll be a week into Election Results and settling down from the craziness and figuring out what life is going to look like with the new President.  If it's not your candidate in the winner's circle, you may be feeling a little depressed, a little angry or disenchanted with the steps our country is taking.  I get that- this is a big election after all and right now we as a country are so divided.

But I'd like to encourage you to think about something positive on November 15th.  And I can't think of a more positive thing than acknowledging an entire day created celebrating families of the heart. 

So, on November 15th, I want to challenge you to to this:
1. Draw the smiley face
2. Take the selfie
3. Post the selfie
4. Use the hashtag #worldadoptionday
5. Add the hashtag #babycarradoption
6. Tag me on Instagram (@katt5498) or Facebook (@ktneverending)
7. If you are using Facebook, link our page (
8. Smile because it is a day of celebration of families

November 15th will most likely be a crazy day.  Give yourself a bright spot by celebrating adoption as well.

Are you with me?!!?